I accept personal responsibility. I accept blame. Even if I had been blindly guided into each decision that has led me to today, I still indict myself for every choice. I’m not any worse off than my neighbor and I never got a bum deal. It’s all perspective and it’s all in my head. Taking an honest assessment of my strengths and making an effort to sort through my weaknesses keeps me in check. If I am to find happiness, I need to be willing to give up on blame. I need to stop giving away my power and take responsibility for my own life and my own choices. The consequences give me wisdom to grow, change and learn from all that I experience. The consequences are what help me survive and motivate me to stay my course on this journey.
So what am I supposed to do with all this disappointment? Harboring disappointment will never lead to happiness. I seem to feel disappointed when others fall short of my expectations, so again, it’s ultimately my responsibility to keep my expectations in line with reality. And then there is regret. I am accountable for my own choices and therefore must direct the blame inward when a personal choice does not meet a positive outcome. The disappointment about the outcome itself should only be a lesson, not a source of stress. My energy is better focused on finding healthy ways to avoid poor decision making by using more careful analysis. Always thinking that the glass will remain half full no matter what happens is a fool’s fallacy.
Then again, when I have a win, I can feel fully empowered while I take my victory lap with my fists pumping and my smile wide. Positivity is a skill to be mastered and must be attained with mindfulness. The world doesn’t owe me any favors and I’m ok with that. I take pride in working hard for what I achieve. Fulfillment is like a warm shower after a long run…sometimes that’s the best part.
The running diatribe of others that I hear means that I’m listening to the wrong source. It’s not my burden to bear, it’s my choice to change the channel. Even static in between the stations is better than negativity.