About 2 years ago I felt a spiritual awakening begin to happen within myself. The process has led to many changes in my life including a change in career and a complete shift in my physical body. At times I’ve been surprised by what I’ve discovered and other times even delighted at what I’ve been able to learn from all of this. When you open your heart and begin to pay attention to your intuition, beautiful things can be brought into your life. But it doesn’t always come easy and there are a few lessons to be learned along the way. “If no mistake have you made, yet losing you are … a different game you should play.” -Yoda
During a time of transition such as this, you may be stopped dead in your tracks by some unforeseen circumstances and realize that you have to stop fighting so hard against all that is coming at you. You learn that there is nothing to gain when you blame others for the things that have happened to you and that complaining about frivolous things does more to push people away than to bring them in. You learn to shed the beliefs that you’ve outgrown and realize that people don’t always do what they say or say what they mean. You realize that integrity, honesty and bravery are worth the effort and being the better person really does mean something. It’s a time to assess and redefine in order to discover the difference between what you want and what you need. If you do all of this from a place of truth, then a rising sense of self-confidence is born and you learn to become more self-reliant and feel more secure in your decisions, possibly seek less counsel from others. In turn, others may start to seek more counsel from you.
Writing has been my companion on this journey, and I can now look back through the phases of my transformation marker by marker. When I feel that I’ve hit a new marker I tend to go back and not only read through what I have written, but try and go deeper into the thoughts that were beginning to manifest during that leg of the journey. If I had not documented this whole journey, my mind would have jumbled the details into a mess just as it has some of the other phases of my life that I chose not to archive. When you script your testimony you create a memoir for the ages that may have otherwise never been shared. These memoirs can be kept for yourself or shared someday with your loved ones, that is up to you. But, writing things down in the moment and keeping a running dialogue with yourself can be extremely soothing and even healing should you need it. It’s amazing how often I’ve needed my own hand to hold over the last few years.
Every awakening comes in phases. Some happen suddenly and come to an abrupt end and some last for months or even years coming in waves and you risk being swept up by the current at any time during this often unsettling time. However, the better the foundation you create for yourself, the more likely you will be to withstand the vulnerability of it all. Ride the wave the right way and you deepen the learning in a way that can only happen during such an unpredictable time. It is during these times that going back and reading what you have written during less grounded phases will be a well earned reward.
And sometimes, during these times, the most amazing things can happen. Suddenly things that have been buried deep or long abandoned can find beautiful renewed meaning. This journey, after all, is about getting back in touch with who we really are and what we really need to truly be our happiest selves. The one person who knows the answers to all the questions that you’ve been out there seeking is you. “Already know you that which you need.” -Yoda
Photo courtesy of my friend Devon Delricco and his fishing boat