We could never learn to be brave and patient if there were only joy in the world. -Helen Keller
The more hard times we face, the stronger and more brave we will become? Not necessarily. When I experience happiness it makes me crave more happiness. When I struggle through pain and endure hardship I lust after joy. Either way, I long to settle into a pleasant existence. Some people around me seem to settle into sadness like a cozy pair of slippers while others dig and dig for delight until they are exhausted. The journey to Serenity is different for each person and the destination just as distinct. It’s up to each of us to decide whether or not we want to be happy. Maybe it takes more effort to be happy, but I see the endeavor as worthwhile. The payoff is big and the lesson I pass on to my daughters is valuable.
There are several parts of my personality that I am dedicated to working on during this journey to find more happiness for myself. Even the more difficult changes are worth tackling if I ever want to truly reap the benefits of this process and one of the most difficult things for me to overcome may be my negative self-talk. I work hard at rolling a big boulder of positivity up a very steep hill only to hear a voice in my head shouting cynicism in an effort to slow my progress and make me drop the boulder and get crushed in it’s path back down the hill. I’m tired of losing momentum because of the angry committee in my head that spews negativity. It seems that maintaining my happiness may be as hard as maintaining the positive self talk. If I let even one negative thought sneak in, it slows my momentum. But this life presents us with adversity and it’s not always so easy to stay positive.
My hope for myself at this point is that my hunger for happiness will help drive my ability to learn how to quiet the negative self talk and let me turn the naysaying into affirmations!
It’s only nice to say SHUT UP to yourself.